It’s one of those moments. You know the ones. You’re going about your day and the phone rings. And then your entire life stops for a moment and then it all begins moving at warp speed.
That was my morning. Just finished getting everyone fed and watered when the phone rang and it was one of my brothers. I didn’t think much of it because we’d been talking about my driving out to help out with my mom, who is sick and pretty frail.
I answered cheerily and his first words were, “It’s not good, Tam.” My heart sank. I thought, it’s mom. Which would have been bad enough, but I was kind of prepared for that (as is mom, with a DNR and all her medical decisions made).
Then my world stopped for just a moment as he said, “It’s dad, he’s had a stroke.” I forget to breathe for a beat.
Next breath, my world went into hyperdrive. For my dad: Medevac to the ‘big city”, initial diagnosis, surgery and prognosis all while I contacted friends and petsitters to see who was available to take care of the ducks and check in on the cats. (Ducks, it’s always the ducks who are the issue, LOL).
Contacting clients, running unexpected errands, pulling together everything to drive 8 hours and be gone for I don’t know how long. Trying to remember to breathe.
I’m almost all packed, but my brain has kind of shutdown and I needed to take a break (so what do I do? I write about it to you. It’s somehow therapeutic).
Dad’s in ICU, everything looks good, considering how long he was down before anyone found him. Prognosis is cautiously optimistic.
This pandemic sucks in so many ways – least of which is having someone in the hospital and worrying they’ll contract it. And not being able to visit them when they need you most.
I just wanted to share, because sharing with you guys makes it easier somehow. Keep a good thought for my dad, for me and for the poor pups who will be stuck in the car with their very freaked out person for 8 hours tomorrow. Not quite sure how I’m going to do the drive because I still not anywhere near my normal level of endurance. And breathing was an issue before my world turned upside down.
Also FU pandemic for me not being able to accept all the offers to travel with me so I didn’t have to go alone.
That’s it. I’m going to go back to packing…
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