Back in the Saddle

Where she belongs. Always.

Apparently after my earlier post I just decompressed, because I went to take a quick nap (with Lily, of course), and I woke up three hours later. I fell asleep with my hand on her belly, just feeling it rise and fall, and when I woke up, it was still there.

Let’s send some kind thoughts and love Miss Bianca’s way, as her beloved Stella passed.

54 replies
  1. 1
    kdaug says:

    All is right, as it should be.
    Enjoy it while it lasts.

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    spudgun says:

    So happy for you, John😁

    Very sad news about Stella…my condolences to Miss Bianca.

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    rikyrah says:

    So sorry for your loss, Ms. Bianca😥😥
    Sending love to Lily.
    Thanks for the update Cole.

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    MomSense says:

    Oh Miss Bianca, I’m so sorry. Sending you big hugs.

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    pdxjmk says:

    I’m so sorry for your lossMiss Bianca. Sending good vibes and hugs your way

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    khead says:

    Very nice. Thanks for the update. Condolences to Ms. Bianca.

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    satby says:

    Was late to the other thread, so again, deepest condolences Miss Bianca. You gave Stella a lifetime of love, the best gift a dog could ever have.

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    Jay says:


    I’m sorry.

    Pet’s don’t often deserve us.


    Life ain’t fair.

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    sfinny says:

    So sorry about Stella and happy about Lily being home. Pets are such a rollercoaster sometimes.

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    Libraryguy says:

    So sorry to hear about Stella, Miss Bianca. Thinking warm thoughts and hugs to you and your family.

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    RobertDSC-Mac Mini says:

    My condolences, Miss Bianca.

    Happy to see Lily home.

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    Mary G says:

    Light and love to Miss Bianca for the loss of Stella, and happy to see Lily home again. All the pictures of her today are a treat.

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    hedgehog mobile says:

    So sorry to hear about Stella. Love and light to you, Miss Bianca.

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    Suzanne says:

    Oh, Miss Bianca, I’m so sorry. Hugs and best wishes for you, and all who loved Stella.

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    Cckids says:

    Miss Bianca, my heart goes out to you. What a lovely place Stella is resting in, though! May you come to find peace as well.

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    Damned at Random says:

    Miss Bianca- So sorry about Stella. I’ve lost so many pets (and so many people) and it doesn’t get easier. In time, when you are receptive again, you might find a new companion with something of Stella’s spirit to love. Best wishes until then

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    HRA says:

    My sincere condolences to you Miss Bianca on the loss of Stella.

    Lily is really home now!

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    Amir Khalid says:

    Miss Bianca, condolences over Stella’s passing. I know you’ll always cherish her memory.

    Great to see Lily home again and feeling well.

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    Yutsano says:

    Oh Miss Bianca! I know this was tough for you. Please look after yourself.

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    the zombie community is happy for you…

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    Bruuuuce says:

    So sorry, Miss Bianca. I’m sure she was well loved, and vice versa.

    As for Lily, very glad to see her in her Only Home, with her family, where she should be, and feeling, if not healthy, much better. You go, Cole and Lily!

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    Temporarily Max McGee (He's a Dancing Machine) says:

    Way to go, Lily! I know how it feels.

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    (Temporarily) Temporarily Max McGee says:

    Okay, something inside those parentheses is tripping the spam trap. Three times in a row means a quick name change.

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    SectionH says:

    Wonderful to see Lily close to your hand, and can’t help it but also wonderful to see Steve hanging in nearby too. TBH, all these photos are wonderful.

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    SectionH says:

    I posted condolences to Miss B downthread, but to make sure ( I was on a device that’s not working so well) I looked, and don’t see it. So just in case:

    Miss Bianca, I’m so sorry about Stella. Losing our dogs, cats, horses, rabbits – whatever “critters” we love – it hurts every damn time.

    I’m relieved that your worries about how to bury/cremate her seem to have worked out. I was crying and lol’ing at the same time when I read that post, as a good Juicer, because I’ve stuck a few cats in my freezer when it was the best option. Buried them when all due love later, but they weren’t Very Large Dogs.

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    Yutsano says:

    @(Temporarily) Temporarily Max McGee: It’s considered a new nym. Those always go into moderation at first.

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    Mnemosyne says:

    Oh no! I missed Miss Bianca’s news from earlier today. Many, many condolences.

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    SWMBO says:

    Condolences to Miss Bianca. Peace and comfort to you and all who loved her.

    Lily is in her happy place. So is Cole. And all’s right with the world in Bethany.

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    seaboogie says:

    So Lily is back and this is once again a pants-optional blog…these are the good old days.

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    CaseyL says:

    Miss Bianca – I’m so sorry to hear Stella has died, though you did give her a lovely final resting place.

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    I’m so sorry, Miss Bianca.

    John, I’m glad Lily is where she should be.

    There’ll be extra cuddling with Iggy snd Muppet before I go to sleep. Just to remind them I love them.

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    Mohagan says:

    I’m so sorry about Stella, Miss Bianca. It’s always so hard to lose a beloved pet.
    And JC, thanks for the two lovely updates and great pictures of Lily. What wonderful news! She looks so happy; all’s right with the world today at least. Long may she prance!

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    No One You Know says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Miss Bianca.

    Really glad to hear about Lily, John. I’ve listened to my felines breathe after their surgeries.

    Our fur people leave their paw prints all over our hearts. Forever.

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    SectionH says:

    Saved comment, too late for this thread.

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    Kathleen says:

    My deepest condolences to you, Miss Bianca.

    Glad to hear all is right in your world, John G.

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    Patricia Kayden says:

    ((Miss Bianca))

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    thalarctosMaritimus says:

    I’m sorry about Stella’s passing, Ms. Bianca. Your caring for her clearly comes through in your writing.

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    Johannes says:

    So happy for you and Lily, Cole. Miss Bianca, my sincere condolences on your loss. We’ve had some here, lately, and we know how much it hurts.

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    WaterGirl says:

    Of course your hand was still on her tummy, Cole. Even in your sleep, you knew you had your Lily home and needed to know she was okay.

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    WaterGirl says:

    Miss Bianca, my heart goes out to you.

    I have never gotten much comfort from wakes or funeral, but we buried our beloved dog Bear in my friend’s back yard, and it was the most comforting goodbye I have ever been part of. We all said a few words and buried her with a bloom from the beautiful hydrangea bush I had just gotten in her honor. That is the most peace I have ever experienced from a wake or burial, human or beloved pet, before or since. I hope you were able to have that, too.

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    Manyakitty says:

    Miss Bianca, I’m so sorry to hear about Stella. Sending peace and love to you and yours.

    And yay for Lily resuming her role in the Cole household! Are the other critters being nice to her? Whenever one of my cats leaves, if even for a routine vet visit, the others are MEAN. My Heisenberg kitty had to stay overnight in the hospital for a urinary blockage, and when we brought him back home, Schrodinger and Manya tormented him relentlessly. I ended up keeping him in another room until they calmed down.

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    WaterGirl says:

    @Manyakitty: I have always loved the photo – I think it was a BJ thing or an internet thing – where an injured kitty comes home from the vet and his/her brother or sister kitty puts its arm around the injured one. So sweet.

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    Manyakitty says:

    @WaterGirl: Aww…I remember that! My cats are generally loving toward one another, but something about hospital smells sets them off.

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    Ohio Mom says:

    So, so sorry, Miss Bianca — I remember that this is a challenging era overall for you and the hits keep coming. I hope you find comfort in your memories and the knowledge you made sure Stella had the peaceful passage she deserved. Sounds like she has a beautiful resting place — you did everything you could.

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    Nicole says:

    Miss Bianca, I’m so sorry. And so glad Stella was able to pass at home, safe with someone who loved her.

    The last day my horse was alive he couldn’t stand up anymore, and while we waited for the vet, he would try to sit up, until the effort got to be too much. Every time he lied back down he would adjust himself so his head was in my lap. A friend of mine, after, said, could there be anything better than to be able to leave life with our head in the lap of someone who loves us? It made me feel a lot better. They don’t experience fear of the end the way we do; they trust us to do what is best for them right up to knowing when to let them go.

    I think that’s why Cole maybe wasn’t able to make the call on Lily on Thursday- it wasn’t time. For your Stella and my Cosmo, it was, and so we were able to make the decision. When I worked at the zoo and keepers had to make the call on the elderly animals, they would always say when it was time the animal would let them know. I didn’t quite get it then, but now I do.

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    Miss Bianca says:

    hey, friends, late to this thread, but just wanted to thank the Blogfather for his shout-out, and all of you, as well. i am tearing up a little here. It’s been a year of big and rapid changes so far, and this community of jackals has helped me cope with it all. Bless you all, and lovely Lily as well!

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    Alternative Fax, a hip hop artist from Idaho says:

    @Miss Bianca: I am so sorry to learn of your sad news about Stella. They leave such big paw prints on our hearts, and you’re in my thoughts. If you have time, plz shoot an email as I lost any addresses not marked as contracts in a recent tech failure.

    Cole, I’m so happy to see that photo. It was great to read Lily is home and see the ones on her ride back.

    Back to the grindstone. Have a good week, fellow jackals.

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    Paula says:

    Happy about Lily; sorry to hear about Stella. Pets always end in heartbreak but the price is worth the joy of having them.

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    Jane2 says:

    @Miss Bianca: Condolences on the lost of your darling Stella. Such a tough decision, but the right one for a peaceful passage.

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    The Moar You Know says:

    @Miss Bianca: I am sorry. Truly, truly sorry. Went through this back in 2014 and I still miss her.

    As circumstances do, we ended up with a moody (seriously) goth (seriously) golden retriever that is the polar opposite of our dearly departed Hannah in every way. So I’m reminded of her on a daily basis as I pray for Hannah, wherever she is, to help me with this adorable canine terrorist dog that’s ended up in our lives.

    You always miss them. My taciturn, express no emotions dad told me this recently in a conversation that left my jaw on the floor. So utterly unlike him. He used the phrase “scar on your heart that never goes away”. Man, he was dead to rights on that one. The heart is still there; it works; function not impeded. But that scar, fuck, it’s there.

    As a reminder of why dogs are awesome, Max, an ancient blue heeler, takes care of his human and saves her.

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    J R in WV says:

    @Miss Bianca:

    So sorry to learn of your loss. Stay well !!

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    J R in WV says:

    And Blog Host John Cole:

    So glad for you and Lily, having some time to be together — and in spring, the best time of year evah! Enjoy the smells of blooms and new growth together!

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    Wanderer says:

    Miss Bianca: I am sorry for your loss. It is so hard to loose a beloved pet.
    Lilly: take good care of yourself and John. So glad you are home.

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    Garbo says:

    So sorry for your loss, Miss Bianca. Our pets are pure love and joy and they make our lives better in too many ways to count. Godspeed, Stella.

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