Day 8 without a cigarette.
I’ve been doing nicotine patches and Wellbutrin under a doctor’s supervision. Chantix worked very well for me three years ago, but VA wouldn’t give me Chantix because of concerns about the side effects, given my history. So a week ago yesterday I started the current regimen. I’ve been chewing a lot of gum, and going for more walks than usual. But I’m making progress. Today when I got home from work, as I was changing my clothes, I discovered today’s patch, still in the packaging, on the bathroom vanity. I immediately looked at my arms, and there was no patch there. I made it through the day without any real problems. And of course, the moment I realized I didn’t have the patch on, I immediately had a very powerful urge to go smoke a cigarette. So I have the patch on and the bubble gum in.
On another note, when I got out of the National Guard in 2010, I weighed 196 pounds. As most of you remember, doctors found a mass in my chest about six months later. I had this removed on September 8, 2010.
Well, I never got back to the level of activity I maintained before retirement. Over time, I steadily added pounds. On Christmas Day, 2014, I weighed 301 pounds. This wasn’t working for me anymore. Several factors combined to cause me to balloon up, and more importantly, to not give a damn. But something had planted a seed in what passes for my mind. I started watching what I ate, and going for walks. I joined Weight Watchers in January. With the support of my wife, my doctors at VA, and my friends, I am down to 269 as of this morning. I don’t know how long it will take or if I’ll ever get there, but my goal is to eventually be back to 196.
One day at a time.