First, the earworm I have been dealing with for the last 48 hours:
Next- How do you all deal with chronic pain? Thing are just getting worse and worse for me. I’ve broken all my fingers twice, or in some cases, three times, and they basically throb and hurt all day every day. My left knee used to lock up, and my knee would lock my leg in place at a 90 degree angle until I twisted my foot back and forth, and I would hear something pop and then I could extend my leg again. It really sucked when I was swimming. My left shoulder aches every day because I broke that collarbone twice (once in a car wreck, once in the army) and I dislocated my shoulder at least a half dozen times playing lacrosse. My right shoulder, well, longtime readers know all about that. Walking dear Lily I completely shattered that shoulder, detached my bicep, broke the shoulder in 8 place, broke the collarbone, and completely destroyed the joint, shattering it in multiple places, etc., and had reconstructive surgery that included 6 hours of surgery and a half dozen arthroscopic procedures.
And that is just the tip of the iceberg. I fell 3 stories (I was 18 and tequila was involved) and landed on concrete and had to go to the e-room to deal with the ankle and heel situation (nothing broke and none of the doctors believed I fell that far), I have been through two windshields in car accidents and had multiple concussions and bit a molar in half (which was actually the worst pain I have ever been in), and so forth.
And I won’t go in to the broken ribs and the smashed toes. Long story short, I am in pain almost every day, and as I get older, it gets worse, and I just don’t know what to do about it. It was easier to deal with ten years ago, but now that I am 42, it is much less easier to ignore. I mean, for fuck’s sake, my fingers hurt. Every part of me hurts except my back and my ass and my thighs.
I just can’t keep eating advil, I refuse to take narcotics because they just have such an adverse effect on me (histamine, confusion, etc.) and while my wine therapy always works, that isn’t really healthy.
So what can I do to try to make myself not be in pain every day? And again, as I age, the pain is getting worse. I just ignored it or dealt with it before, but it is getting to the point that it is distracting. Do you guys have any ideas?
Also, too- Mamas don’t let your babies grow up to be John Cole.